See, I believe that the void we feel, that lack, that burning desire, that craving of wanting more is our soul letting us know we are here for something bigger, our divine purpose, and it is up to us to figure out what that is.
I asked those questions for as long as I can remember, but that inner voice in essence started to scream when my marriage broke up. I was asking all kinds of questions like “what was the point?” “Why did this happen to me?” My anger, my disappointment, my pain, my hurt, my emptiness all started to over flow out of me like dormant volcano that had sat inactive for years. I literally finally erupted and everything I had held in me for all those years literally exploded out of me.
It wasn’t until I started my inward journey to contact my inner self, my inner child through meditation that I literally got introduced to who I was inside. I realized, that for all those years, I had become caught up in who people saw me to be on the outside and as a result, I only knew myself from an “outside perspective”. What I realized was, who I appeared to be on the outside, who I had been defined from the outside, was nothing like the person in the inside. It was like discovering pandora’s secrets when I went inward.
My journey within enabled me to begin an inner exploration that felt like I was getting to know myself all over for the first time. I was getting to know me like we get to know a stranger. I began to discover my likes and dislikes, my love, my fears, my pain, my strength … I started to discover everything from scratch. Once I began doing that, I started to recognize my purpose, my soul purpose. A part of me that had been in a deep comatose state for all those years, awakened in such a beautiful way, that I began to feel more awake, more aware, and more in tune with myself, the world around me, and more importantly, a connection with God came to life that I had never ever had before. My journey continues and I can truly say, I am finally living a life filled with love, purpose and faith. This journey that to guide me towards creating a life God wishes me to have, fearlessly, full of dreams that are coming alive and will continue to manifest into my reality. Has this journey started with you and if not, how are you ready to make it happen?
I love you!
Farahana Surya Namaskar